goooood morning

  

 chillin' with melia for morning music and blogging....good morning world!!!

morning is one of my favorite parts of the day.

it's hopeful, peaceful, quiet and yet,

there is a sense of building energy in facing the day.

'His mercies are new every morning'...i sometimes wonder if that could be one reason i enjoy it so much.

aghh..there are so many things to do in life!  good things  - meeting goals like climbing mountains, doing triathalons, running as many half-marathons as i want to in a year, 

having a ton of kids and helping shape their lives, being more adept at photography,  jumping off the bridge on hwy 36, doing 100 pushups at a time, fulfilling God's purpose for my life, finally figuring out ONE signature,  learning how to make a perfect recipe of baklava and ending up half as good a cook as my mama.

i want Jesus to be beautiful in my life and dad gummit!  i'm so far from where i want to be..

i was seven or eight, standing in the gravel parking lot of our church looking at all the 'big kids' who were going to pizza hut in their cars. i knew from that point just how being a big kid would feel.  it would feel empowering, liberating...you would know everything about life there is to know and have all the money you could ask for, and every barbie, gun and car you wanted plus candy - or anything else!!!! for goodness, sake, they're grown ups.  'once they hit that age, they have reached the destination and they cruise through life without all the cares i have...like how long it'll take t i finish school tomorrow ....or that my best friend can't come over for the third week in a row...ahh!!
poor me.'

but now, i'm here.  22.  and i find i don't know half the things i thought i would..why don't i feel i've reached the destination???  

huh. simple. i haven't.  

and i hope i don't forget it.  i hope that is the one thing that will become always clearer to me; 

this world is not my home.

to lose my life

 is to find Christ.
aaaaand as for all the things i hope to do???
well, do any of us really know what we will or will not accomplish?
   i  anticipate the challenge of finding it out.

love i hope to have